Finding out you're pregnant and saying bye to exercise..

March 24, 2014 YAY positive pregnancy test!!!  

First test: Friday March 22nd.. went skiing and drank a beer.. Ok we'll try next month.

Second test: Saturday March 23rd didn't wait long enough

Third test: Monday March 24th HOLY COW DO I SEE SOMETHING

Forth test: March 24th on the phone with Ally freaking out.

I have been debating for weeks whether or not I wanted to share my journey.  On the apps that I have downloaded on my phone it suggest you log your journey in a some type of journal but I have struggled.  I have been so freaking sick this entire time.
But since this is our first baby.. I have decided that YES I would love to.

I plan on sharing this with people who care for me and I know who love me.. and could careless when I post pictures of me being a HUGE fat whale. That being said, I feel like a huge bloated whale.  

7 weeks 2 days.. first ultra sound, super sick and feeling like a huge cow.

  While I know pregnancy is the most rewarding gift a woman can ever experience, I'll be damned if it isn't a shot to the esteem to continue to get huge and feel like I am growing outradgiously.  Let's be honest.  I am 10 week sand 3 days and showing like I am 4 months pregnant.  We only saw one sweet baby in the ultra sound but I'll be surprised if number 2 wasn't hiding there somehwere! I work in an environment where people don't know to be kind.  

Yes I understand that your daughter is due on the 7th of December and doesn't look like me.  No I am not getting fat..

Only one baby in there from the first ultra sound.   Measuring at 7 weeks 4 days.

Pre-pregnancy I used to go to the gym fairly frequently.. you're talking 4 to 5 days weekly or run outside to stay fit. I especially loved the high impact weight lifting and cycling classes.  It was the way my husband and I spent our mornings together.. getting up at 4:40am.. working out until 6:30.. breakfast together, I loved it!  We motivated each other in away that was undescribable!  As soon as I found out I was pregnant , they got me into check my hormone levels.  Everything almost tripled!  It was almost clarification of why I have been so sick.  One thing that came up was that my progesterone level was a little low and didn't increase as much as it should have. So, onto progesterone for 35 days I go!  This really put me into more of a rut.  There was NO working out for me, even if I was feeling well.  I did not want to do anything to harm baby McNabb.. especially finding out this news.  My next appt I plan on just talking to my dear OB on what I am able to do since she was the one telling me I really needed to step it back. ALOT.

I am so afraid of falling back into a place I hated with myself..

Pictured: Top left three years ago :( YUCK.   Rest are March 14, 2014- ovulation time frame.

I understand that I am supposed to be able to work out.. and do as needed for me.  But because this is our first pregnancy- of course I am freaking out.  I always thought that my first pregnancy was going to be a healthy one.. but so far it is not!  I crave or the BABY CRAVES muffins, ice cream and 2% milk.  Milk was something I HATED before pregnancy.

9 weeks 5 days if I recall correctly. Hello there baby bump!

I did feel good after a leg work out on Sunday.. kept my heart rate below 140 but come on.. I worked out A LOT prior to this pregnancy.

10 weeks 2 days.

How far along: 10 weeks 3 days!

Total weight gain: gained 8 lbs total

Maternity clothes: Regular clothes so far but pretty sure in the next week I'll be in maternity.  My regular clothes aren't really working anymore with a hair band tie.

Stretch marks: None yet

Sleep: Pretty good most nights.  I do have a night once a week that ends up being awful because I am so sick and nothing helps.

Best moment of this week: Having ONE good day where I was able to make it to the gym.. even if it was followed by an awful one.

Miss anything: Running.. lots of it.. working out.. feeling good all the time

Movement: we're too little still

Food cravings: 2% milk mmmmmmmm

Anything making you queasy or sick: pretty much every stinkin day

Have you started to show yet: Not yet.. going to the gym first.. ewww

Gender: ?????????

Labor signs: thankfull not

Belly button in or out: In but getting big.  You can really see the scars from my surgery last year when I had my right ovary removed.

Wedding rings on or off: On :)

Happy or moody most of the time: I'd say moody because this has not been enjoyable so far.

Looking forward to: Feeling better hopefully within the next few weeks so this pregnancy will become enjoyable.